Graveyard Shift

For almost six years of working as CSR in Metrobank, this month is considered as one of my critical. Why? Because I'm on a graveyard shift.

First week has been very difficult to me. The adjustment period really affects me in a very different way. I felt dizzyness and terible headache. Sometimes I wanna throw up for some unusual reason which I don't know. Also, I'm having hard time travelling going to work. I'm not used to riding on a bus. Shuttle service is non available during my shift. That sucks I think.

Come with the second week and third week and I started liking graveyard. I enjoyed my GY mates. I have also less stress environment since we're just very few on the floor. Time comes really fast and I can't seem to noticed that its already end of shift. I have no record of tardy and absences for this month so far. I now love GY.

Sharing you with some pictures taken during our shift. Idle and system downtime.

From left to right : adriane, loren, jade and jessie

An epic pic. We're complete due to wrong schedule plotted for Loren. Still LOLing..

Beautiful eyebags.

Camwhoring with mates <3

Few Facts of Me

PART 1 : BASIC

Were you a planned baby?
- I'd like to believe, YES

 Were you the first?
 - No. The youngest.

 Were your parents married when you were born?
- Luckily, yes.

 What is your birth date?
- 2nd of August 1985.


PART 2: THE FAMILY

 Parents married or divorced?
- Married

 Are you an only child?
- No.

 Are you the oldest, middle, or youngest?
-  The youngest.

 Which parent do you get along with best?
 - My mom.

 Do you have step-parents?
 - none.


PART 3: THE FRIENDS

 Do you have more than one best friend?
 - Yes

 What do you like to do when you are together?
 - We enjoy eating, sleeping, shopping, and shit talking.

 Do you share the same interests?
 - yes we do!

 Which friend can you tell everything to?
 - the one who used to bully me since HS but now he's my best friend.


PART 4: YOUR PERSONALITY

 Do you have a low self esteem?
- yeah. maybe at times.

 Do you get depressed about things easily?
- No.

 Are you happy right now?
 - I can say so..

 Do you live life to the fullest?
 - ummm. yes but with limitations.


PART 5: APPEARANCE

 Are you comfortable with the way you look?
 - no.

 Describe your hair?
 - Shoulder length and straight so far. 

How do you dress?
- it depends on the occasions.

 Were you a strange child?
- Yes. I'm all of the things you'd never expect. 


PART 6: RANDOM

 Are you scared of growing up old and alone?
 - Yes. Everybody is doesn't want to live alone.


PART 7: THE OUTDOORS

 Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
 - During my early 20's, I preferred outdoors, but now on my late, I love to stay home.

 Favorite season?
- Summer and Christmas.

 Do you like walking in the rain?
 - No. I easily got sick.


PART 8: FOOD

 Are you a vegetarian?
- No.

Favorite food?
- More on breakfast food.

 What food makes you want to gag?
- Oyster. But I learn to love it with wine.

 What is your favorite dessert?
- Banana split.


PART 9: RELATIONSHIPS AND LOVE

Do you believe in love at first sight?
- No.

 Best gift from a wife/husband?
 - Endless love and Kids of course.

 Have you ever been in love?
 - Yes.

Have they ever loved you?
 - Yes.

5 Stages of Grief after a Relationship Break-Up

When there has been a dramatic change in our lives we feel a sense of loss for what has been. This is true if a long term relationship has ended or even a shorter term relationship where we have felt very intense emotions and love.

You are in fact feeling the emotions of grief. By understanding the stages of grieving you can move on more quickly to a point where you can rationally decide your next steps for the broken relationship. This may mean moving on from a relationship totally or making plans to get back together with your ex.

Not everyone follows the 5 stages of grief in order, sometimes stages are missed all together. Sometimes you may move backwards and forwards through the stages in a roller coaster of emotions. Everyone is different. By understanding the grieving process you will recognise what is happening and this empowers you to take control.
The Five Stages of Grief

1. Denial
When you have broken up you may initially feel numb. You know the relationship has ended but can not take it in that you have actually broken up. You hope that things will be "OK" later in the day or that things will be back to normal in the morning. The denial stage rarely lasts long as your ex does not come back home or return calls etc.

2. Anger
When you break up you often feel angry and look for someone to blame. Often rational thoughts go out of the window and we look to punish the person we feel is to blame for the break up of the relationship. This can be a very dangerous stage of grief. In a rage you may take some actions that will destroy any chance of getting back together with your ex, or even may be illegal and get you into serious trouble.

3. Bargaining/Buying your ex back
Some people actively try and buy back their ex and offer some sort of deal to get back together with their ex. This would include things like offering to move house, give up friendships or things you enjoy in return for a relationship. While this may seem ok in the short term, the underlying issues why the relationship broke up in the first place are not addressed so the new relationship rarely lasts. It also makes you seem desperate to your ex and may drive them further away.

4. Depression
When the anger about the relationship break up is over, you can often feel depressed. Everything feels hopeless; you have no energy, feel paralysed and don't know what to do next. This is when you realise fully that the relationship has ended and you will feel there is nothing you can do that will have a positive outcome. Depression is a difficult stage as often you will not have the energy to make changes to come out of it. Recognising the depression stage of grief is important and taking small steps and setting goals to come out the other end helps. If you find you are depressed for a while or are thinking of harming yourself, please seek professional help.

5. Acceptance
The final stage of grief is acceptance; you agree and accept that the relationship has ended. Now is the time to start making changes to move on. At this stage you will also be able to rationally think if you do actually want to get back together with your ex or to put the relationship behind you.

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Boredom!

I'm writing another shit because I'm bored. It's a second day of my off and I'm staying home alone. I slept, I ate, flooding on social media, watching torrent movie and bumming.

My back is acheing also. I think this is due to high pressure massage went last night. Well, I'm not used to any massage. It sucks!

HINDI LAHAT NG GUSTO MO, MAKUKUHA MO!

"Hindi lahat ng gusto mo, makukuha mo!" - That's a famous line from the movie "The Mistress". Ironically, it just happened na applicable pala sya sa sarili ko.

Usually, I got what I want. Kapag gusto ko ang isang bagay, I work hard to claim it. Lahat ng bagay kapag gustong makuha may paraan. Pero pano kung may nakikialam at humahadlang sa kagustuhan mo na makuha 'yon? Susuko ka nalang ba? 

We normally strive hard for something we want. It may be a long term goal or just a simple wish. Para sa akin, ako ang driver ng buhay ko. Lahat ng nangyayari sa akin, I am responsible for it. I blame no one if I fall. At kung may magandang mangyari man sa akin, credit ko 'yon sa sarili ko.

Ginugusto ko ang isang bagay kasi alam ko mapapasaya ako nito. Parang gusto naten ang isang tao kasi nagbibigay sya ng dahilan para masaya tayo. Sana lang talaga walang "epal". Hindi ko kasi maintindihan na sa panahong sila naman ang nasa sitwasyon ko wala silang narinig sa skin na masama. Nagpaubaya ako kahit alam ko na may mapipintas ako. But I chose to be quite. Dedma lang, as in "Like I Care". 

Ngayon, kung kelan dapat hindi sila makialam sa takbo ng buhay ko, eh tsaka naman sila kumikilos at kung anu anong sinasabi. Ang masasabi ko lang, "Hindi mo ako kagaya at hindi ko rin hinihingi ang opinyon mo sa buhay ko". Kung ano man mangyari sa akin, labas kana sana don kasi buhay ko 'to. 

I can't talk to anyone with regards to my situation pero sa totoo lang gusto ko na sumabog at magdissappear nalang bigla. 

Gusto ko, kaya makukuha ko. And I will move heaven and mountains to claim what I want. I'm strong enough to do unsure things in me. 

KAYA 'WAG KANG EPAL OK!